After I originally wrote this blog I looked over it and realized I really needed something to break up the text, so I put in some self portraits I took several days ago.
I miss my blog. I really do. Why such the break between posts then? It’s hard to point the finger at one thing, life has been moving fast lately. I’m trying to turn myself into the person I want to be in between a class and job, three roommates, and a family who has been more helpful than I could ever say.
Maybe I’ll back up. Last fall and summer I knew photography was my dream. I knew nothing else could make me happy and any other job would be menial and frustrating in comparison. So I tried to take pictures as often as possible, keep updated on the newest gear, and keep my eyes open for new legends rising. In the process I met some great people who I wouldn’t have known otherwise. Mitch Kitter has inspired me and been an all around good friend through out the journey, and I know I’ll never forget my internship with Melissa Laggis.
I spent so much time working on my photography, figuring out websites, coming up with prices, and working with models that I didn’t spend any time working on myself. I immersed myself so deeply into the industry that I closed gates over paths that might take me further than I thought they could. I didn’t listen to the advice given to me from all sides, feeling confident that photography was the only thing that could make me happy.
I didn’t realize it until just now, but putting that kind of stress on a person is a silly thing to do. Now my eyes are open to other options, I guess I might say I’ve been freed. Of course I could not have done it alone, I would be utterly hopeless if it wasn’t for my Mom constantly throwing out new ideas and my Dad supporting me every time I changed my mind or came up with another “new plan,” not to mention my step-dad Marlin, my brothers Ross and Nick and my patient friends.
I still love photography, I try to take pictures every day (a goal that is rarely reached) and keep up with certain influential blogs. I love getting into the nitty-gritty technical details of new cameras, new computers, new anything. I can’t wait for the next edition of PhotoPro to come out. Now though there’s no pressure on me. I like to take pictures every day but I don’t have to. I can let it come to me instead of trying to push it again and again.
Anyways, that’s why I haven’t been posting any blogs these last few months. On other big news, I have a First Friday display on March 4th! Check out Treft.Punkt the night of and I’ll be there meetin’ and greeting. There will be some food, hopefully it will last throughout the night! Bring a friend over, it will be a lot of fun. I can’t wait!